You conquered me

on

I

I must say goodbye with tears, pain next week
and though we’ve broken us with fiercest war
and though our faiths diverge, I urge you love –

to fight the good fight, to run the tough race
and never ever lose hope, peace or face.

II

Know that I love you with intensity.
Know that I hold you (here) candescently.

III

And if the rage of fate tore you from me tomorrow,
if paroxysms of angst and weeping crushed
me like a car careening into a sidewalk
and I’m left forever smashed with crushed headlights
of insight, a smashed engine of consciousness,
a broken windscreen of vision, a destroyed, debilitated
dashboard of memories, then my very identity
takes a gunshot to the head,
my self lies decapitated,
because you helped resurrect me
from the tumbledown, machine-gun town man
I once was, you breathed love into me,
thawed steel; made me feel and burn with
ardour again.

IV

And as I spent years desperately searching desert sands
for a glimpse of forever’s glow,
as I walked miles wandering with a milestone
tied around my already twisted
neck needing someone to snip
both the cords and chords, the blue
engulfing, choking, enveloping, conquering –

you found me, rescued me, loved me
you pulled me out of the abyss,
beat my chest until I coughed
the murky water out and my lungs sang again,
you slowly helped rehabilitate me,
gently bandaged the scars on my neck,
gradually watched me come alive
and if everything’s meaningless
so be it, I’d live the same life,
bear the same pain,
almost die, only to find you
saving me.

V

I must say goodbye with tears, pain next week
and though we’ve broken us with fiercest war
I know that I’ll find my way to your arms –

again, soon and this break will help us see
that we’re always forever meant to be.

© Nitin Lalit Murali (2018)

You’ll find more of Nitin’s work at Fighting the dying light

16 Comments Add yours

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much Anthony

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  1. aeryn78 says:

    Wow! That is all…well done

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much!

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  2. Wow. This broken my heart, but in such a beautiful way.

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much Kristen!

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Heartbreaking and quite beautiful. I sat quietly for a long time after reading this. Nitin, your words are very moving, “we’re always forever meant to be”. ~ Mia

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    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much Mia. I’m so happy that it got you both thinking and feeling. Your comment moved me – Nitin

      Liked by 1 person

  4. This makes me feel joy and sadness. Very powerful.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you Em. I’m so glad you were able to feel the lines.

      Liked by 1 person

  5. Reblogged this on The Melancholy Spitfire and commented:

    Devastatingly beautiful.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much for the reblog and your kind words Em.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. You’re welcome, friend.

        Liked by 2 people

  6. Wow, this is piercing. Absolutely breathtaking.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Nitin says:

      Thank you so much Chela. Your words mean a lot to me.

      Liked by 1 person

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