Crystal Prisms

My eyes shed crystal prisms of pain
Drip drip dripping
Ever down to where my heart once was
Oh! free me from this agony

How did I come to be in this place
I listened, believed, hoped
Wanted, desired
Put everything, my everything, in

Sucked out, torn
Tossed and shattered
Used, abused, quickly forgotten

Never will I find all the pieces
Never will I once more be whole

I am easily, quickly replaced
Used up, hung up, left
Unimportant or unaware
Either way, I am alone
Drops dripping, healing attempted

Failed

My cheeks, always damp
Eyes cast down, away
Don’t lift my chin, dear friend
You won’t like what you see there

Reflections shimmering in dewdrops
Resting momentarily on the brim
Before dashing down, spilling over
They are each, every one, a dream
A hope
A wish

Don’t brush them away
Keep your fucking pity, your kindness
This is me, who I am
My reality, this
My heart still clenches and burns
Breaths in gasps, hitching

I am ashamed

Dirt-stained palms cover my face
Run from the room
Run from your solace and mercy

How easily the words ‘but I love you’
Roll from your lips
Oozing out thick sweet honey
But I know better
You can’t be serious
Right?

Because if this is real
This changes everything
Fucking everything

This is me, running again
Please, dear god, please
Don’t follow
Let me go

These tears and I
We just simply aren’t worth it


©️tara caribou – 2018

You can read more about brokenness and love over at Caribou Crossings, you know, if you want to.

4 Comments Add yours

    1. tara caribou says:

      Thank you so much

      Liked by 1 person

  1. bluerooster says:

    Not all things that are broken, can be mended. Perhaps I have been too kind, wishing for the pain to subside, when it only has grown stronger? If I hadn’t been of the thought that it could be better in time, who knows where you might be today? The fault would then be mine.

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