without you

on

a small town
a bitter & cruel town
a most unwelcoming town
is my hometown

every day i pause
i listen
everything is a sign
that you & i
are still aligned
every song
every fucking song

a black sheep
a pariah
you were the only time
i belonged
you were the only time
i felt at home

twenty-two years ago
we tore each other
down
twenty-two years ago
we broke each other’s
hearts
twenty-two years ago
i lost you

today
today i got invited
to my small town high school
reunion
called on to face my life & to wonder,
have i lived?

an invitation to crush my soul
& leave me
knowing
i will not survive this
this one more thing
without you.

©quixotic mama 2018

find more of my art & writings at: quixotic mama

the image is an original from my self-portrait series, based on/inspired by/ borrowed heavily from Gustav Klimt’s “The Kiss.”

 

5 Comments Add yours

  1. Nitin says:

    So powerful and heart-wrenching..

    Liked by 1 person

      1. Nitin says:

        You’re welcome

        Liked by 1 person

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