Euphoria

Your arm lightly circles me And leaves half of my side tingling. Your warm touch spreading like wildfire It lingers, lingers after you are long gone.   An infection I can’t fight, An addiction I can’t deny, You pull me in and I’m caught, like A fish on a line.   I hold my breath…

The lies I tell myself

I’m a damaged broken husk of myself robotic in my movements most unremembered except the ones that torture an intrusive stain that grows ever larger as I test my fate I can’t get out of bed I’m a fatal disaster if I move it will prove I can make my life better instead I’ll pull…

the wrong one

after all this time after everything or because of everything i just can’t believe i am the kind of person who deserves to be loved whenever i see someone i would like to call my own i worry they will find their true love before i can convince them to love me i worry they…

Milkshake

In the stillness of the night It’s the steady thump of your heart Keeping me tethered To this smoke hazy room, A lacklustre altar of unholy vows. And yet they’re sacred to me, Because our union means it matters In whatever microscopic way, And the void in my heart doesn’t feel so dark. Yet I…

When nature fails to invigorate

When even nature fails to invigorate, When forests seem bleak and mountains heave a sigh, When things just fall apart like a reprobate Whose worn existence and stale cigarette Makes me – a twisted catcher in the rye Whose broken nature fails to invigorate. When gnarly trees do threaten, castigate With haunting browns, dead leaves…

Lost and Found

Dropping bread crumbs Under the canopy of this dark forest, Hoping someone will find me But only the snakes follow, Piercing me with poisonous thoughts And fangs that leave incurable scars. What if no one’s looking? What if no one cares? My desperation reaches new heights, The bread starts dripping with my blood And the…

Rush

There is something between each mote of dust, suspended in the light of the bulb that I switch on: elementally flawed, fundamentally twisted, fanatically fucked, and so, I walked out to no serenade of songbirds, and walked to the old coffee shop, later a café, and now an outdoor restaurant, and saw her, smoking that…