This thing called love

I never thought I’d ask myself what love is, but after so many failed attempts at trying to love myself and others, I’ve reached the crossroads. I look to the left and right and see hate; I look forward and see an unpromising future filled with regret; I look back with bitterness. All my life,…

Apathetic

I’m so tired of pining over someone who’s not here, thinking dreaming will help her materialize and waltz right up to me when I’m ambling down the sidewalk, the stars don’t align in the right places and there aren’t ‘precious’ moments in life, I’ve gradually lost the will to hope for a life better than…

That Ragtime though

I’ve never been to New Orleans and learned what little I know about the culture from HBO’s Treme. I do like jazz though. Now, some jazz is inaccessible like abstract philosophy. You can only listen to it from a distance and wonder (in awe or repulsion) about what’s really going on. But play a Benny…

All that begins with L

You take hold of one letter And make claim to all words That begin with it, single-handedly Making them reality in my world.   Lucky, to make me think myself Fortunate to have met you And make bearable the weight of Living.   Laudable, excellent in every way, From friend to Lover, student to colleague,…

Euphoria

Your arm lightly circles me And leaves half of my side tingling. Your warm touch spreading like wildfire It lingers, lingers after you are long gone.   An infection I can’t fight, An addiction I can’t deny, You pull me in and I’m caught, like A fish on a line.   I hold my breath…

The lies I tell myself

I’m a damaged broken husk of myself robotic in my movements most unremembered except the ones that torture an intrusive stain that grows ever larger as I test my fate I can’t get out of bed I’m a fatal disaster if I move it will prove I can make my life better instead I’ll pull…

the wrong one

after all this time after everything or because of everything i just can’t believe i am the kind of person who deserves to be loved whenever i see someone i would like to call my own i worry they will find their true love before i can convince them to love me i worry they…