Time Well Spent

There’s so much that makes me cry, but there’s also so much that makes me laugh. We are bodies of wonder that have the power to hold so much goodness and light. Oftentimes though, we get sidetracked by life and the several obstacles it hurls our way. But when you think about how they come…

hurting

you can’t put your pain in front of someone else’s happiness you can’t let your own darkness eclipse everyone else’s light you can’t because who are you then? you are the monster you fear the most. taking what has hurt you & hurting others with it.   © quixotic mama 2018 for more of my…

If Only

I used to want to feel the pain from consuming, like an emaciated lion viewing a life-saving meal, peacefully sipping from a pond, unaware of the hunger, survival, desperation of the creature lurking behind her, ready to pounce. Ready to pounce, without the energy to kill, weakened by days of walking aimlessly after a one-on-one…

out of desperation

i had a dream which spoke to me dream me said to dream you we did not come together out of desire… but out of desperation i had had so so many relationships you had had none at all locking yourself away from everyone both of us desperate for love desperate to be loved you…

Depths

Like ink and blood spill from my pen, lackluster in their shaping of the words upon my tongue and lips, within my mind, the buried depths, transported here to bide their time, creep into parts of my real life, stories recalled, truths to be told, delusions of what to expect; puffy eyes, puffy lips, vacate…

Navigate

I know things about you I was scared to know, discovered through means necessary for my contentment devastated at the thought of another potential failure, unsure if the tailspin could be recovered convinced that it couldn’t, you said goodbye unconvinced you could pull me back to your side, but I caved, in my effort to…

Mending Heart

Last night I saw a friend of mine, one I once wrote a poem for, I shared with him when wonder was new, believing he could be a final destination, but someone else was also there, taken by surprise at his attentive nature, sweet messages throughout the day, unafraid of filtering words I say, consistency…