Pathetic

Pathetically I masquerade as a happy woman Smiling, listening, responding. Just as pathetically I wait day after day for you For a word, perhaps three a sign, a show, a glimmer of hope. Realistically I appear to be a woman unconcerned Cold, unfeeling, aloof. Just as realistically I listen night after night to you Fighting…

Lyre

When distance grew I tried to strain My eyes The silhouette of you I spied Until I couldn’t crane My neck another inch to view The places that so heavenly you flew With letters sent I’d so remain Inside A well, my water spent Of pride A fracture on a plane Of glass that I…

Bar Fly

Tonight she easily found a seat at the nearly deserted bar of the pub near her home. She sat alone listening to a background murmur of conversation from the tube and a game of darts in the corner but a few minutes alone before the bartender slid her drink over. Swiveling in her seat, two…

déjà vu

Today I feel naked and vulnerable and more than ever I wish I had his arms to lie in. I need him to carry me and speak sense into me and tell me I can be exposed before him. Everything feels like I’m on repeat. I’m sure I’ve done this before. Felt this pit in…

Crystal Prisms

My eyes shed crystal prisms of pain Drip drip dripping Ever down to where my heart once was Oh! free me from this agony How did I come to be in this place I listened, believed, hoped Wanted, desired Put everything, my everything, in Sucked out, torn Tossed and shattered Used, abused, quickly forgotten Never…

Burning Excuses

I wandered around in a fit of worry Wringing my hands Sighing and moaning Swiped my fingertips across my forehead This doesn’t make sense How can it be? There’s no explanation It couldn’t work out I see no viable ending Does he really know me? We’re too far apart What does he see? And on…

Long Distance Runner

And when he spoke the words to me: I love you, you’re beautiful, every part of you is beautiful in my eyes…. I ran. I ran scared and I ran hard, beating out a rhythm beneath my feet. I screamed, you don’t get to say those words to me! Yes, you may love me, but…